homelessness

The next day i wake at 9 am, i feel sick. I ring hynburn council and ask them what to do, they tell me to go down to their office.. i get there and they interview me and ring my ex to check that i really am homeless (why would i lie?) and find us a place in a hostel, the warden gives us the keys, shows us around, tells us the rules and fills in the paperwork.

At this point i havent eaten for 2 days, i have no money and i feel useless... I am supposed to care for my son and keep him safe and i havent. My friend buys me some food and goes home. we are alone in the hostel, my son is crying for his things and i am crying because i didnt protect him from this. I sit in the kitchen on my own and consider calling social services and placing him in foster care. I cant live without my son but what kind of mother am i?

I try to sleep and eventually fall asleep around 5 am, i still havent eaten as there is not enough for 2 and i dont know when i will be able to get any money. I am still in the same clothes i wore to go out on new years eve.

I am so low and lonely. I feel unwanted and useless..