Post blow-out blues.
Slept from 9 pm until 3 am. Missed big brother, is Jade still in? I haven't seen it for days due to my Antipodean sleeping habits.
Ok, sorry here l go again moan, moan, moan!
My social life is good at the moment, l'm meeting some great people. True l can be as daft as a very daft brush. Those of you who have meet me will agree! But l'm a bit sorry for myself today.
Friends are important and always will be, but the thing is l'm 40 and no one [besides my Mum and Dad] as ever told me they loved me. That's as bit weird isn't it? There must be something odd about me, besides the obvious.
I'm not an Adonis but l'm not a minger either, and as l descend into a life becoming more and more disabled the chances of finding someone to love and who might care for me become slimmer. This sounds like maudlin, self hating crap. Perhaps l should have made it a private entry. l do need to write it so tough, bear with me and forgive me also.
It's worse because l feel l've been left behind by my chums? It could never have worked, l have nothing they wanted, l was always on to a looser there, but l miss them so much, and it breaks my heart.
Boo hoo hoo.
Pull yourself together Rindy.
I'm not despondent, and l'm sorry for being a moaning Minnie. l just need a cuddle, thats all.
Off to my Goddaughter's sport's day this afternoon. She called me last night. lt's her Granny who is my Aunt Ros. Her Granny usually goes to watch her, so this year she's got me instead. Sadly l think it will just be me next year too as Aunt Ros hasn't been given much hope, but hopes to be home soon.
Slept from 9 pm until 3 am. Missed big brother, is Jade still in? I haven't seen it for days due to my Antipodean sleeping habits.
Ok, sorry here l go again moan, moan, moan!
My social life is good at the moment, l'm meeting some great people. True l can be as daft as a very daft brush. Those of you who have meet me will agree! But l'm a bit sorry for myself today.
Friends are important and always will be, but the thing is l'm 40 and no one [besides my Mum and Dad] as ever told me they loved me. That's as bit weird isn't it? There must be something odd about me, besides the obvious.
I'm not an Adonis but l'm not a minger either, and as l descend into a life becoming more and more disabled the chances of finding someone to love and who might care for me become slimmer. This sounds like maudlin, self hating crap. Perhaps l should have made it a private entry. l do need to write it so tough, bear with me and forgive me also.
It's worse because l feel l've been left behind by my chums? It could never have worked, l have nothing they wanted, l was always on to a looser there, but l miss them so much, and it breaks my heart.
Boo hoo hoo.
Pull yourself together Rindy.
I'm not despondent, and l'm sorry for being a moaning Minnie. l just need a cuddle, thats all.
Off to my Goddaughter's sport's day this afternoon. She called me last night. lt's her Granny who is my Aunt Ros. Her Granny usually goes to watch her, so this year she's got me instead. Sadly l think it will just be me next year too as Aunt Ros hasn't been given much hope, but hopes to be home soon.