Margaret, I know your life isn't easy....and my post was not a criticism of you in any way.
There is nothing wrong with being philosophical - heaven knows over the last months I have gone down that route too, but navel gazing is just that, and there is always the possibility that when we do a post mortem on what someone has said we read into it far too much...lots of people are too dumb to put hidden agendas into what they say.
Enjoy what you have now....this is a new chapter and I hope that in such surroundings your health improves so imperceptibly that you do not realise it is happening......it is good to remember that you have a past, but we all have to live in the present.
NOW who's being philosophical
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