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accymel · 19-07-2007, 13:52

Actually been there & done it once survived but last dying thoughts were 'i dont want to die please dont want to die & that if i died i wouldnt of reached 30'! Being 23 at the time 30 must of been old so deeply upset me at the time that there was a lot of life i would miss out on if i had of gone & luckily i made it to that milestone - 30 is actually quite young!! LOL!

Life gone by flashbacks do actually happen during the process - thats freaky but not as bad as a 'what would become of me & the effects my passing would have on my young ones' certainly gave me the kick arse fight back to the living!!

I want to go if i had to peacefully & when im really old, or when im not needed anymore here on earth, certainly not again in the circumstances that happened last time or in real suffering.

But atm i want to stay living even when times are bad, i take everyday as it comes & memory bank everything good, i dont take my life for granted certainly since then nor do i want others to take me for granted either because i know too well im on borrowed time. Take life as it comes & try to make the most of it as its here today & could be gone tommorow.

19-07-2007, 13:52	#27
accymel I am Banned Join Date: Oct 2004 Posts: 7,688 Liked: 0 times Rep Power: 0	Re: Final Words/Final Wishes? Actually been there & done it once survived but last dying thoughts were 'i dont want to die please dont want to die & that if i died i wouldnt of reached 30'! Being 23 at the time 30 must of been old so deeply upset me at the time that there was a lot of life i would miss out on if i had of gone & luckily i made it to that milestone - 30 is actually quite young!! LOL! Life gone by flashbacks do actually happen during the process - thats freaky but not as bad as a 'what would become of me & the effects my passing would have on my young ones' certainly gave me the kick arse fight back to the living!! I want to go if i had to peacefully & when im really old, or when im not needed anymore here on earth, certainly not again in the circumstances that happened last time or in real suffering. But atm i want to stay living even when times are bad, i take everyday as it comes & memory bank everything good, i dont take my life for granted certainly since then nor do i want others to take me for granted either because i know too well im on borrowed time. Take life as it comes & try to make the most of it as its here today & could be gone tommorow. Last edited by accymel; 19-07-2007 at 13:55.