[flashy]

i see what your saying Chris, but when it comes down to it she was your mum, i never had a good relationship with my mum either, she died of cancer when i was 15, we fought a hell of a lot, i was the rebellious(sp) one in the family and we clashed like mad, i got a slap or five for it too, but nothing untoward, i often wonder how my life would of turned out if i'd of still had my mum around.....

anyway enough of me, i think you should go to her funeral, even if its only for closure, you want to put that part of your life behind you and i think this would be the best way to do it and get over it

just my opinion but i reckon it will help

in years to come you may wonder why you didnt go and you may regret it


no one can make your mind up for you, only you can do that, either way we are all here to help you with anything if needs be

take care and chin up xx