[blazey]

I think you should go, because you might regret not properly saying good bye to her. Although you might despise her for the way she treated you, everything that has happened to you in your life has shaped you into the person you are today. I think you may feel better if you try and forgive her for what she did, because although she didn't show it, like any mother I'm sure she loved you as her son very much.

I'm sure she'd have loved you regardless if you had been the one who acted in such a way. They say that even the mothers of the most terrible murderers and criminals still love their sons regardless. I'm sure it can work vice versa and you might be able to find enough love for your mum to say your final goodbyes to her?

Don't be stubborn and live to regret it, that's all I'm saying really. But dont go if you truly cant find it in your heart to forgive her or give her any real compassion.