[LancYorkYankee]

Hey Glasgow Guy, Thanks so much for sharing this with us! Even though my "mom" is still alive, I can "feel ya" on this one. Very similar childhood and feelings about the lady in the house we was raised.

I've often felt odd when my friends lose their parents and are so terribly devastated at the loss of one of their parents. Okay, it is probably more envy or jeolosy that they had such a close relationship with them.

I don't believe you need any closure by going to the funeral. You can always find that in the future if you so wish. However, I think it may be important for the rest of your family to have you there. If not solely for them. It'll be hard when folks approach you with condolescences and "happy thoughts" about this dead lady you used to live with.

When my mother dies, I will attend her funeral out of respect for my brothers and sisters. My only tears will be for the fact that she had NO CLUE as to how much scars, pain and anguish she caused or allowed to an innocent little boy!

I do so wish you well in this time GG. Let those closest to you , and who know you (and your background) best help guide you in this decision!

Brian