[MargaretR]

Two weeks of noise and disruption have taken their toll - I am mentally exhausted.

My body jerks at every loud noise, and there are plenty of those going on while the roof refurb happens.

I have been 'breathless on exertion' for a while - now I am breathless constantly.

I recognise the signs because I have 'been there' before.
I recall a panic attack I had in 2002 - when I ended up in BRI on oxygen for a night.

I won't get that bad again because I have recognised what is happening to me.

I have always had an independant nature and pride myself on my ability to cope.
I reluctantly admit - I am stuggling to cope now.

My neighbour Brian (b rawlinson) has been a great support during this ordeal, even though he is having stress symptoms too. He has called on me almost daily and we discuss when this refurb ordeal is likely to end.

I can't see out of, or open wide, my windows due to the scaffolding and plank walkways. it will be nice to see the trees again.

I have no intention of seeing any doc. I have had mind altering prescriptions in the past and found the side effects worse than the symptoms they purport to cure.

Now having recognised what is happening to me I am better able to live through it.

I have another week of hassle yet to come.
Two visits by cleaning contractors, one visit by workmen restoring the loft insulation, and more banging outside whilst the new guttering will be going on.

I have postponed the repair to my ceiling by saying 'don't rush to do it'.

If I make any irrational statements on here in the next few weeks I would appreciate tolerance.
I am not feeling mentally stable right now.