I never said l was a nice person.
The drugs l take are also used for schizophrenics as well as Parkinson's, perhaps there is something they aren't telling me/us?
Like most people l wear different hats for different occasions. There are some people who have known me all my life who consider me saintly. Kind, gentle thoughtful, and l can be.
I can also be a total show off. Loving being the centre of attention, acting daft always having to go that little bit to far as people that go to the meets have witnesssed.
For some strange reason l can also be incredibly cruel, l can't explain why. l don't do it as a hobby, and before this l can't remember being so vindictive. My only possible self rationale is depression, and yes self pity, which l am desperatly trying to pull myself out of. Marg Pilkington has been wonderful in sending encouraging bits of advice and slaps to pull my self together.
If she knew just how mean, l doubt she would be so understanding.
Here goes- pretending l'd taken an overdose whilst chatting to my two friends because l felt left out, and then threatening them with blackmail was a stupid and wicked thing to do. They didn't deserve that, no way.
I just had a pm from one of them, quite reasonable under the circumstances, telling me a few home truths for which l'm grateful.
It's time for me to leave it. It has become like an obsession instead of the fun it started out as. I wish them both well, and hope if we happen to pass in forums/chatrooms/or the 'real' world they can find it in them just to say 'hiya'.
The drugs l take are also used for schizophrenics as well as Parkinson's, perhaps there is something they aren't telling me/us?
Like most people l wear different hats for different occasions. There are some people who have known me all my life who consider me saintly. Kind, gentle thoughtful, and l can be.
I can also be a total show off. Loving being the centre of attention, acting daft always having to go that little bit to far as people that go to the meets have witnesssed.
For some strange reason l can also be incredibly cruel, l can't explain why. l don't do it as a hobby, and before this l can't remember being so vindictive. My only possible self rationale is depression, and yes self pity, which l am desperatly trying to pull myself out of. Marg Pilkington has been wonderful in sending encouraging bits of advice and slaps to pull my self together.
If she knew just how mean, l doubt she would be so understanding.
Here goes- pretending l'd taken an overdose whilst chatting to my two friends because l felt left out, and then threatening them with blackmail was a stupid and wicked thing to do. They didn't deserve that, no way.
I just had a pm from one of them, quite reasonable under the circumstances, telling me a few home truths for which l'm grateful.
It's time for me to leave it. It has become like an obsession instead of the fun it started out as. I wish them both well, and hope if we happen to pass in forums/chatrooms/or the 'real' world they can find it in them just to say 'hiya'.
